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Sad happiness
by Nobu, Winter 2010

I should be very happy, but somehow I am very sad.
I should be able to laugh, but I am crying.
I should share my happiness, but at the moment I can share only my tears.

If I am only can share my sadness,
I must not force myself to be happy.
At the moment I cannot crontrol myself very well,
but to be honest, I do not want to be controlled by myself.
I want to be as I really feel now.
I do not force myself not to cry.